shes from space? way to bury the best details here like literal space? and then rained hell on people on earth dude she sounds kinda awesome when you put it that way.
she agreed to kill me as many times as it takes which im going to take as us being good u kno? and i apologized a bunch then she asked if i actually wanted forgiveness & totally called my bluff cuz i know i deff dont deserve it it was about as awkward as youd expect but no stabbing happened and she has her knife that her friend made back she said she knew you so i tried to make sure she knew im the crazy one and not you in case she thinks our world is just a bunch of psychos who go around stabbing everyone
she offered to give you ideas on how to incapacitate me? which i hope is something better than hitting me in the head with something heavy because Wheaty did that with a frying pan once and i was seeing double for like three days.
RIGHT? she was sups cool when i got here found pool noodles for me and everything it was rad as hell
ok 1st of all im literally twice as big as both of u AND i could whoop hursk ass so im pretty sure i kno how to take u down in a nonlethal maner obvi thats why hurks still alive no frying pans either WTF do i look like a tom n jerry cartoon???
but i will still probably tak her up on that bc uh yeah better safe than sorry
2nd of all our world IS a buncha psychos goin around stabbin ppl knifeplay is sorta a big deal in hc lol but i get it and 🫂 or w/e
ughhhhhhhhhhh we probably gotta talk abt gameplans n shit for the future we need this to like not happen again ideally dont wanna get texts from clarke abt u chewin thru some dudes face so
[literally his only solution is "burn the jacket"...]
appreciated but also what iam is a little different than everyone back home carrying a self defense knife.
yeah probs this is the shittiest version of doing poorly in school and the teacher and your mom sit there discussing a homework plan while you sit there awkwardly and occasionally they give you real sad pitying looks.
[Not speaking from experience or anything. ]
but yea we should what do u need? like how can ihelp somehow
i shoudl be the one dealing with it anyway just dont know how short of ODing on ketamine and hoping i wake up normal and apparently that isnt how it works.
good news is buddy you dont gotta deal with this on ur own bad news is u do gotta deal with it at all
i got a bunch of ideas they feel kinda shitty and dumb but sometimes shitty and dumb is all we got so my main thought is u should like. text me more??? just every so often shoot me a 👍 if shits ok and if shit isnt going good like if ur starting to freak out just 👎 yk then i can roll up as damage control or pre-damage control whatever thats called
and man i know the answer is gonna be no but can you please stop wearing that fucking jacket its doing shit that ur brain cant handle
you ever tried to quit smoking before? like best of intentions really gonna do it this time & then 3 days later you have a pack in your hands standing outside the spread eagle flicking the stub you don't even remember smoking?
its like that. i didnt wear it for a few days when i met lucius in the arcade i wasnt the next day totally left it in the closet and then day 3 i didnt even realize i had it on til i took it off in my room at the end of the day wore it all day without even noticing
heres the truth and im being honest now so dont make a joke at me
i really want to let you burn it like i want it fucking GONE
But.
i think that i might totally lose it big time and need to be tied down or leashed or i dunno
because im going to think i failed that i wasn't strong enough.
ok i can work with that its gonna take me a min to figure it all out logistically startin fires around here is kindda difficult??? friday sows up its a whole thing but i kno we can smoke in the casino so mb if we do it quick there accelerants easy we got liquor all over the place
[There's a better option, but he isn't going to mention it until he's at least floated it past Giles.]
theres a cruise jail down on deck 0 right??? could literally lock u up keep u outta ur room so ur roomies safe probably could get clarke 2 keep people out if not her i could outsorse burnin the jacket n keep an eye myself bet i could apoc-rig that fuckin cell out with some of the shit on board keep u in there like the werewolf of london
thats not a joke its a comparison jsyk im dead fuckin serious abt this jacket shit
cos like ppl get drunk and get into fights??? or maybe for torture??? idk
⬆😤⬇ we aint doin anythin yet this is all just talk even if hes right hes still NOT FUCKING REAL thats never goingto stop being true but if he was right and it did show up again then fuck it man we can try somethin else we can throw it overboard or ill fuckin fly it up a flagpole or something
lets just like keep that whole thing to one side right cant even do anything rn so just know were on the same page ok?
i know hes not but real talk punching him in the face even if my fist goes into the wall feels damn good also practice in case he fucking shows up want to kick the shit out of him at least once before he gets all mind controlly when he doesnt see it coming
sharky seriously name one thing ive actually been able to handle
punch him whenever you want man fuck him he cant do shit im not lettin him roll up IRL and mind fuckin you again thats not happening
buddy seriously???? u think rook didnt tell us what you did??? how you learned what was up and saved rooks fuckin life and totally fucked over jacobs shitty plan that motherfucker tied you to a fucking chair and left you to die bc he knew he couldnt fuckin break u u were just gonna keep fuckin his plans up bc u were smarter than him you outsmarted him and you outlived him and now ur here on this fucked up fantasy cruise shit bullshit gettin laid and vibin by the pool???
yeah ok for sure u are fucked up im not gonna argue that but im not just blowing smoke up ur ass to make you feel better when i say you got this! im old and wise and shit i know what im talking about.
rook wouldnt have been in that situation to begin with if i hadnt crashed the fucking helicopter because all those fucking cultists launched themselves into the blades wouldnt have been in the fucking chair getting brain raped by jacob if it wasnt for that shit
you know jacob made ME carry rook to the chair and tie all the straps fucking watched me and he was smiling the whole tiem
this shit was my fucking fault.
[He tosses the phone to the side and rolls over on his bed to stare at the ceiling for a while. Not a big fan of the feeling of tears pricking the corners of his eyes right now. Because it wasn't really his fault, and he knows it. But the alternative is to accept that Sharky is right and that he actually did something worthwhile and useful, it just hadn't fucking mattered in the end. Still, felt kinda.... nice. To be told he's not a complete fuckup.]
yeah okay your right i just doesnt really feel like it helped because i wanted to get us both out and i spent fucking weeks planning that and then it all went to hell because for some reason jacob picked THAT DAY to have an extra patrol and found out so i had to get rook out of there and i didnt even think it worked sitting there dying thinking i fucked that up too but guess it did work out jacobs dead johns dead faiths dead thats something
cant go blaming urself for shit the peggies did man those fuckin nutjobs jumped into the fuckin blades man!!! how the FUCK were u gonna kno that was gonna hapepen i sure as shit wuldnt of thought theyd do that!!! who the fuck does that!!!!!!
[He'll wait however long it takes for Pratt to get it through his stupid cop skull that he actually did do something to help. It isn't his fault that Rook fucked everything up in the end. Shit, it isn't even Rook's fault that it happened! The only people he can really blame in this situation are the fucking Seeds.
Aaaaah, but fuck is it relieving when he gets a green light at last.]
it was shit luck but i got ur back we just keep floatin the idea for a while until it doesnt seem impossible then ill start yknow makin arrangements tryin to figure out logisitcs im real good at this shit now i watched kim plan a bunch of shit back home by the time ur ready to roll we can have everythin all ready to go until then ya we just keep talkin bout it lil by lil and if u catch urself wearin the jacket w/o realizin txt me i wont like make u take it off or somethin stupid like that i just will kno u kno???
[In case something goes down, he'll know what's up. Basically.]
thought they were fucking insane but maybe they were the smartest ones just fucking end it and not have to deal with the seeds anymore
yeah yeah exposure therapy for jacket burning i have it stuffed under the mattress so at least if i grab it i have to lift up the whole fucking bed and hopefully i dont do that without noticing or im in serious fucking shit
though i might just not remember you know that science dude with the hella tall hair? i have met that guy at least four times and ive straight up forgotten almost every single one my brain is one of those plastic balls with all the holes in it or maybe more like the ones with the bells in it you give to cats
head empty no thoughts but for real and it fucking sucks.
ok so i wont like judge u or nothin if u forget or dont do it ever just like IF u notice ok? if it like fucks u up to notice ill hit up clarke n like see if she can get my # to gway we'll keep a fuckin eye out for u if u cant do it urself thats what kims all about its like all for one or one for all or w/e w her fuckin hot authoritarian mom vibes to be sure
sorry thats not like relevant just fuckin nick rye man
ur talkin to a dude who had a court mandated therapist AND a po checkin in on me every fuckin week i get it bein watched bc ur at risk suuuuucks but ya it takes a village sometimes
promise man i got ur back and will continue 2 have it. HC4L
also fuck u i dont gotta practice shit my hot mom vibes are top notch
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like literal space?
and then rained hell on people on earth
dude
she sounds kinda awesome when you put it that way.
she agreed to kill me as many times as it takes
which im going to take as us being good u kno?
and i apologized a bunch
then she asked if i actually wanted forgiveness & totally called my bluff cuz i know i deff dont deserve it
it was about as awkward as youd expect but no stabbing happened and she has her knife that her friend made back
she said she knew you so i tried to make sure she knew im the crazy one and not you in case she thinks our world is just a bunch of psychos who go around stabbing everyone
she offered to give you ideas on how to incapacitate me? which i hope is something better than hitting me in the head with something heavy because Wheaty did that with a frying pan once and i was seeing double for like three days.
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found pool noodles for me and everything it was rad as hell
ok 1st of all im literally twice as big as both of u
AND i could whoop hursk ass so im pretty sure i kno how to take u down
in a nonlethal maner obvi thats why hurks still alive
no frying pans either WTF do i look like a tom n jerry cartoon???
but i will still probably tak her up on that bc uh yeah better safe than sorry
2nd of all our world IS a buncha psychos goin around stabbin ppl
knifeplay is sorta a big deal in hc lol
but i get it and 🫂 or w/e
ughhhhhhhhhhh we probably gotta talk abt gameplans n shit for the future
we need this to like
not happen again
ideally dont wanna get texts from clarke abt u chewin thru some dudes face
so
[literally his only solution is "burn the jacket"...]
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yeah
probs
this is the shittiest version of doing poorly in school and the teacher and your mom sit there discussing a homework plan while you sit there awkwardly and occasionally they give you real sad pitying looks.
[Not speaking from experience or anything. ]
but yea we should
what do u need? like how can ihelp somehow
i shoudl be the one dealing with it anyway just dont know how short of ODing on ketamine and hoping i wake up normal and apparently that isnt how it works.
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good news is buddy you dont gotta deal with this on ur own
bad news is u do gotta deal with it at all
i got a bunch of ideas they feel kinda shitty and dumb
but sometimes shitty and dumb is all we got
so my main thought is u should like. text me more???
just every so often shoot me a 👍 if shits ok
and if shit isnt going good like if ur starting to freak out
just 👎 yk then i can roll up as damage control
or pre-damage control whatever thats called
and man i know the answer is gonna be no but
can you please stop wearing that fucking jacket
its doing shit that ur brain cant handle
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like best of intentions really gonna do it this time
& then 3 days later you have a pack in your hands standing outside the spread eagle flicking the stub you don't even remember smoking?
its like that.
i didnt wear it for a few days
when i met lucius in the arcade i wasnt
the next day totally left it in the closet
and then day 3 i didnt even realize i had it on til i took it off in my room at the end of the day
wore it all day without even noticing
heres the truth
and im being honest now so dont make a joke at me
i really want to let you burn it
like i want it fucking GONE
But.
i think
that i might totally lose it big time
and need to be tied down or leashed or i dunno
because im going to think i failed
that i wasn't strong enough.
itll be really really bad Sharky.
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i can work with that
its gonna take me a min to figure it all out
logistically startin fires around here is kindda difficult???
friday sows up its a whole thing
but i kno we can smoke in the casino so mb if we do it quick there
accelerants easy we got liquor all over the place
[There's a better option, but he isn't going to mention it until he's at least floated it past Giles.]
theres a cruise jail down on deck 0 right???
could literally lock u up
keep u outta ur room so ur roomies safe
probably could get clarke 2 keep people out
if not her i could outsorse burnin the jacket n keep an eye myself
bet i could apoc-rig that fuckin cell out with some of the shit on board
keep u in there like the werewolf of london
thats not a joke its a comparison jsyk im dead fuckin serious abt this jacket shit
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ok but
i just dunno if it's a good idea
what if i... break or something
fucking starting to sweat and panic right now just thinking about it
he says itll just come back because it belongs to me now. that i deserve it
hes not fucking real but what if hes right?
i dunno if i can do this.
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or maybe for torture??? idk
⬆😤⬇
we aint doin anythin yet
this is all just talk
even if hes right hes still NOT FUCKING REAL
thats never goingto stop being true
but if he was right and it did show up again
then fuck it man we can try somethin else
we can throw it overboard or ill fuckin fly it up a flagpole or something
lets just like keep that whole thing to one side right
cant even do anything rn so just know were on the same page
ok?
but you CAN handle this dude
dead fuckin serious
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i know hes not
but real talk
punching him in the face even if my fist goes into the wall feels damn good
also practice in case he fucking shows up
want to kick the shit out of him at least once before he gets all mind controlly
when he doesnt see it coming
sharky
seriously
name one thing ive actually been able to handle
like anything
im a fucking disaster.
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he cant do shit
im not lettin him roll up IRL and mind fuckin you again thats not happening
buddy seriously????
u think rook didnt tell us what you did???
how you learned what was up and saved rooks fuckin life and totally fucked over jacobs shitty plan
that motherfucker tied you to a fucking chair and left you to die bc he knew he couldnt fuckin break u
u were just gonna keep fuckin his plans up bc u were smarter than him
you outsmarted him and you outlived him
and now ur here on this fucked up fantasy cruise shit bullshit gettin laid and vibin by the pool???
yeah ok for sure u are fucked up
im not gonna argue that
but im not just blowing smoke up ur ass to make you feel better when i say you got this!
im old and wise and shit i know what im talking about.
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wouldnt have been in the fucking chair getting brain raped by jacob if it wasnt for that shit
you know jacob made ME carry rook to the chair
and tie all the straps
fucking watched me
and he was smiling the whole tiem
this shit was my fucking fault.
[He tosses the phone to the side and rolls over on his bed to stare at the ceiling for a while. Not a big fan of the feeling of tears pricking the corners of his eyes right now. Because it wasn't really his fault, and he knows it. But the alternative is to accept that Sharky is right and that he actually did something worthwhile and useful, it just hadn't fucking mattered in the end. Still, felt kinda.... nice. To be told he's not a complete fuckup.]
yeah
okay
your right
i just
doesnt really feel like it helped because i wanted to get us both out and i spent fucking weeks planning that and then it all went to hell because for some reason jacob picked THAT DAY to have an extra patrol and found out
so i had to get rook out of there and i didnt even think it worked
sitting there dying thinking i fucked that up too
but
guess it did work out
jacobs dead johns dead faiths dead
thats something
alright old timer
ill believe you.
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those fuckin nutjobs jumped into the fuckin blades man!!!
how the FUCK were u gonna kno that was gonna hapepen
i sure as shit wuldnt of thought theyd do that!!!
who the fuck does that!!!!!!
[He'll wait however long it takes for Pratt to get it through his stupid cop skull that he actually did do something to help. It isn't his fault that Rook fucked everything up in the end. Shit, it isn't even Rook's fault that it happened! The only people he can really blame in this situation are the fucking Seeds.
Aaaaah, but fuck is it relieving when he gets a green light at last.]
it was shit luck
but i got ur back
we just keep floatin the idea for a while until it doesnt seem impossible
then ill start yknow makin arrangements tryin to figure out logisitcs
im real good at this shit now i watched kim plan a bunch of shit back home
by the time ur ready to roll we can have everythin all ready to go
until then ya we just keep talkin bout it lil by lil
and if u catch urself wearin the jacket w/o realizin
txt me
i wont like make u take it off or somethin stupid like that i just
will kno u kno???
[In case something goes down, he'll know what's up. Basically.]
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just fucking end it and not have to deal with the seeds anymore
yeah yeah exposure therapy for jacket burning
i have it stuffed under the mattress so at least if i grab it i have to lift up the whole fucking bed and hopefully i dont do that without noticing or im in serious fucking shit
though i might just not remember
you know that science dude with the hella tall hair?
i have met that guy at least four times and ive straight up forgotten almost every single one
my brain is one of those plastic balls with all the holes in it
or maybe more like the ones with the bells in it you give to cats
head empty no thoughts
but for real
and it fucking sucks.
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or dont do it ever
just like
IF u notice ok? if it like fucks u up to notice
ill hit up clarke n like see if she can get my # to gway
we'll keep a fuckin eye out for u if u cant do it urself
thats what kims all about its like
all for one or one for all or w/e w her
fuckin hot authoritarian mom vibes to be sure
sorry thats not like relevant just
fuckin nick rye man
[HE WAS FOCUSED FOR A REALLY LONG TIME OKAY.]
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i am so fucking sorry that like 3 people need to keep an eye out for me
thats fucking balls
but yeah
i will text you
and you can practice your hot post apoc mom vibes on gway
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i get it bein watched bc ur at risk suuuuucks
but ya it takes a village sometimes
promise man i got ur back and will continue 2 have it. HC4L
also fuck u i dont gotta practice shit my hot mom vibes are top notch
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thanks
...
and other gay shit
does that mean you always have snacks in your purse?
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its called a satchel
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so thats a yes to the snacks then?
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i got months old fruit leather n some melted gummy bears
right in there next to my magnum condom for my monster dong
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and use your shower before i leave
damn none of thsoe strawberry candies?
[ He's not gonna say it, but magnum condom jokes only work if you don't actually NEED magnum condoms.]
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just one but the wrapper came off. wrapped it back up but IDK man u gotta risk it
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patchy af
lost the genetic lottery on that one
aight keep your lint candy to yourself
im gonna get more ice cream