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Charlemagne "Sharky" Victor Boshaw ([personal profile] broshaw) wrote2022-03-31 10:30 pm
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theweakhavepurpose: (Death is coming)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-14 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
inmy room

roommate isnt here so tried to clean this up but
shes gonna think i died

woke up with a knife in me

cant reach it but i tried to splnt my hsoulder and mbe made it worse?


[Pratt will helpfully open the door! Oh no wait, he will lurch towards it and then kinda slam against it with his good shoulder with a loud thud because he's disoriented and pretty bloody. At least if Sharky doesn't remember what room is his that'll help.]
theweakhavepurpose: (Sick of this)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-14 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[Right. Right. Sharky can't open the door with 120 pounds of Deputy against it. He backs up and does open the door and well... at least he's not covered in blood so that's good.]

I uhm.... hey

[Fantastic greeting. Nailed it.

For all the nervous cowering he's doing and the way his eyes are darting everywhere he doesn't actually look very injured. Not from the front anyway. He's still wearing that damn jacket which is now bloodier and has some black almost ichor around the bottom.
]

Okay so.. I just woke up and I can't move this arm and uh... I don't.. I don't know what I did.

[He backs up to let Sharky in the room and turns out the reason he can't move that arm is because there's a knife wedged in his shoulder socket.

It doesn't feel nice at all.
]

And it's not my knife.

[He found that out by trying to pull it out like a dumbass and being super confused by it's weird shape. ]
Edited 2022-07-14 17:17 (UTC)
theweakhavepurpose: (There is no freedom)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-15 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Okay, orders. Just obey orders, easy, he can do that. He stands still while Sharky inspects the knife. Breathing deep as directed.]

No, I dunno what it hit, but I think my shoulderblade can't rotate? I [He grimaces as he tries to move his shoulder and realizes quickly what a terrible idea that is.] I don't remember what happened. There was someone on the deck and she...

She said something about.. Everyone trying to be peaceful? I think she was trying to talk me down from.. something. And then Jacob.. said she was weak. I attacked her, I remember that. I tried to stab her and she... [Fuck what did she do... Everything is so distorted, like his memories are out of focus and under water. It's so so hard to even try to recall, and his head starts to pound just trying to think about it.] She stabbed me, but not where the knife is now. In the front of my shoulder and then she tried to kick me over the railing.

I don't.. [He groans and holds his head with his good hand.] I don't remember.

Fuck. FUCK! Why the hell...

Jesus this fucking hurts.
theweakhavepurpose: (Bandaged)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-15 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[He stiffens but he lets Sharky manhandle him because he's too confused and pre-occupied to really react to much of anything right now. Strangely that might be a blessing. ]

Shit. I'm sorry Sharky. I'm... I didn't.. mean to. I .. fuck. I'm sorry.

[He is definitely going to cry before they get to the infirmary. Also the fact that he doesn't even know who he killed is really weighing on him. Sure that's normal for when he flips out, but also in this place everyone knows everyone and someone is definitely going to notice a murder victim especially if he left her out on the deck. Unless she's respawned already.]

Yeah, I can do that. Elevator. Infirmary. I was there before when.. I got stabbed. [He manages a very crazed laugh because wow guess he's just gonna get stabbed a bunch here.] I fucking deserve it. He was right, he was fucking right I deserve this shit.

[He goes to curl up again because he's making good decisions right now, but he pauses mid-way, looking down at his palm.]

She sliced my hand open, I remember that. My fingers didn't work. I couldn't... grab my knife. What...

[He flexes his hand, because it sure looks fine now.]
theweakhavepurpose: (There is no freedom)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-16 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
I sliced her across the side... Deep too but her blood was.. wrong. Weird. It was... [He picks up the edge of Jacob's jacket where there's some new jet black stains] Black. Kind of like oil. And she stabbed me in the shoulder with the knife that's in my back now.

And... I uh... [He makes a pained noise and rubs his head because it hurts to try and think through the fog of distorted memories.] tackled her down onto her back, I was going to slit her throat.

[Having no idea how death really works here he doesn't get why he might be healed now. He woke up in bed with a knife in him, and he doesn't remember anything after going to slit the throat of a blonde woman he's never even seen before. He assumes he killed her. But there's not a lethal amount of blood on him, from either of them.]

I don't remember anything after that. I woke up here, tried to roll over and ... knife.

[He abruptly straightens.]

I need to apologize to Stede too.. I .. I tried to fight him ... fucking fuck. What the fuck is wrong with me?

[He falls to his knees holding his face in his one good arm, trying to not move the other. Apparently he needs to walk around with a notebook so he can remember everyone he needs to apologize to.

Also from the way his breathing is starting to gasp and wheeze he's uh... yeah he's crying. Which would be a fantastic time for Jacob to show up and berate him but there's nothing. Which actually makes Pratt more upset because maybe he's not even hallucinating and that's just an excuse he's made up because he's a violent psychopath.
]
theweakhavepurpose: (Where it all began)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-16 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[It never feels good to cry, the way it's impossible to breathe, the scratchy throat feeling, all of it sucks. But it sucks even more when there's a blade buried in muscle that's trying to move with each heaving breath. Pratt is starting to bleed now that he's jostling the blade, and that's causing him to cry more because he's in pain and distraught and fuck he hates this. He hates all of this.]

Should keep me in a cage again. Maybe... maybe that's the way it always should have been.

[He's a dangerous feral animal and can't be trusted around people. He should be muzzled and on a leash at all times.]

Was stupid thinking it would be different here. [Wipes his nose on the sleeve of this disgusting jacket as he sniffles.] Thought I could handle it. And.. I can't. I'm weak.

I'm sorry Sharky.

[As if he personally let Sharky down. Which he feels like he did.]
theweakhavepurpose: (Crying)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-18 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
[He nods miserably. Sharky is right because he can't just lay on the floor crying with a knife sticking out of him. Not only is that dumb; that's some shit that would have gotten his ass kicked at the Veteran's Center. ]

Yeah. I guess. Okay.

[That's a very manly whimper he let's out as he gets up because this hurts really fucking bad and he can only ignore pain for so long before he succumbs to some of it. Because he's weak. Doesn't even need Jacob around to remind him of that.]

I smell fucking atrocious.
theweakhavepurpose: (We're not gonna make it)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-18 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Probably better to just throw me overboard.

[ He gets to his feet finally, leaning heavily on Sharky because he's a lot more unsteady than he realized. The good news is he's not thinking about Jacob right now, even while wearing this disgusting jacket. So that's something. ]

Right. Elevator. Gotta...gotta get to the elevator. 'S only way out.

[ A few false starts and he's finally moving. Look at him actually making it out of his cabin to the hallway. He deserves a medal.]

Be better for you if Rook showed up instead of me. Shoulda never been me. They'd know what to do...and not...

[ Not killing people who aren't Eli? Something. He's not even sure what he's saying right now but he's trying to focus so he doesn't pass out like he did with Izzy.

The elevator might as well be a million miles away. The hallway seems to twist and extend indefinitely. He pauses to stare at it before wiping his nose on his sleeve and stubbornly walking again. He may be weak and insane but he's definitely a survivor, probably the only reason Jacob didn't flat out kill him.
]

Elevator. Yeah. Got this.
theweakhavepurpose: (Avoidance)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-19 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
["We Got This" the famous mantra from people who do not in fact, have it. But he's definitely headed that way, and he will absolutely keep going until he collapses. So.. thanks Jacob?]

Yeah. Least we're not using the stairs... [WOW. Wow.] Sharky... When I'm not bleeding out I'm gonna groan about that properly.

[He can't groan now because he's pretty sure if he does his lungs might fill with blood instead of air. But the death might be worth it for that horrible joke. Instead he gets into the elevator leaning against the wall on his good shoulder, hopefully not leaving any bloody smears anywhere.]

I'm gonna need to give her the knife back.
theweakhavepurpose: (Monologue)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-19 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Pratt's penance for all his mental breakdown tendancies is that he has to acknowledge every single one of Sharky's jokes. The true suffering hasn't even begun. ]

Probably should let her stab me? I attacked her like a fucking psychopath.

[ Deep breath because he's starting to get dizzy. ]

After this, the pirate with the sword, and Jacob's nasty fucking center where half the shit was rusty, I'm really testing the strength of my last tetanus shot.

[ He closes his eyes, waiting for the elevator to beep before he moves again.]

This is gonna suck.
theweakhavepurpose: (Regret)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-20 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
There might be, other stab wound didn't get infected and I got a sword straight through.

[He rubs that wound, not yet noticing that hey! It's gone! He's a little more preoccupied with the current stab wound, which isn't even a wound yet, it's just a 'stab' at this point.]

I've had worse. Jacob stabbed me in the socket of my shoulder and then left the knife there. For hours. So this is.. [A laugh that turns into a cough.] was gonna say better but that's fucked up. Cuz.. it's still a knife in me. People shouldn't have knives in them.

[He may second guess everything and be mentally fucked but he's sure of that one. Knives belong outside of people. Getting off the elevator he heads for the bright light at the end of the tunnel side of the hall that he's pretty sure is either the infirmary or the morgue - either would work in this case.]

You ever play PT? This hallway...

[He's not going to elaborate, but needless to say this level of the ship is creepy.]

theweakhavepurpose: (Almost Time)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-21 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He doesn't acknowledge his awesome victory because instead he's focused on sitting on the table, trying to not drip blood onto it.

Jacob's jacket is so big on him it's almost only being held onto him by the knife itself. Still, he tries to not jostle it as he unbuttons his poor damaged deputy shirt he's wearing under it.
]

This uniform was not designed for this much abuse. Gonna fall apart on me.

[ A soft chuckle because if that isn't fucking symbolic.]

Aight, sorry if I... you know, bleed all over you.

[ Like that's something he can control.

Under the uniform he is wearing an actual new shirt and not his gross ass undershirt he wore for 6 straight months back home. Small steps towards his retirement.
]

Go ahead. M' ready.
theweakhavepurpose: (Monologue)

[personal profile] theweakhavepurpose 2022-07-24 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
Man, didn't even think of that. Might never have to do laundry again and just keep getting new shit? Damn, that's the high life there.

[That's extravagance he's never even IMAGINED.]

Yeah. Just get it over with.

[He doesn't scream, or even cry out, but the way his breath hitches and his fingers dig into the table show the effort that takes. Not that Sharky would even care especially since he broke down crying about ten minutes earlier. But that's just so ingrained in him that he can't shake it.

Because fucking hell this hurts. Somehow it's even more painful now that the knife isn't in there, probably because Sharky is pushing on the injury to get it to stop bleeding.
]

Affirmative. [Deep shuddering breath.] Fuck. How bad is it?

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